I've always had the desire to move somewhere new... where all I have is myself, a job and the Lord, & then see where He takes me from there. The thought of moving is scary, but it's one of those fears that excites me! I feel like after being stuck in Arkansas for 23 years, I need a little change of scenery. However, it scares the beegies out of me thinking about being in a new city with people I don't know, perhaps no one at all! Since high school, I've made such stable friends in Fayetteville and in Little Rock. I've established friendships that are so strong I can hardly bare the thought of being away from them for a few years, much less permanently! What if I can't build new ones that give me the same sense of security? What if I lose touch with those that I'm close to now, & then those friendships dwindle? Now THAT'S a scary thought! What if I hate the city? What if I can't afford it? What if I get blown away by a tornado or a hurricane? What if, what if, what if...
These worries only remind me that I'm not trusting God with all that I am. I need that friendly reminder: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." -Jeremiah 29:11-13.
There's a specific city that has been popping up in my mind, & I'm not sure when or why I started thinking about it, but it's there. "Hurricane" by Jimmy Needham (I've included a link at the bottom) has been on repeat since I first heard it. There's a line in it that says, "I am Yours and You are mine. You know far better than I. And if destruction's what I need, then I'll receive it, Lord, from thee." I have no doubt in my mind that I would probably cry myself to sleep for a few weeks if I followed through with this whole moving thing. But, if that "destruction" is going to be the challenge I'm craving that tears my walls down so that God can reveal Himself to me more than ever, then so be it.
Of course, I'll be static in LR until next May, so I've got a lot of time to think about this. I prayed about this for the first time tonight, and I would appreciate nothing more than for you to pray for me, too! It's never too early to ask God for something :). You never know what could happen in a year!! I've been pretty emotional about this thought today, & if it's any indication as to how I'll feel about moving when it's really time to job hunt, I'm going to need all the praying I can get!
"Hurricane" by Jimmy Needham
3 comments:
This is Adam Thrash
Dear Powers, I guess by now you are supprised that you have a reader. haha. "How about that ride in" <Hangover. I have expirenced what you want to do. I went to alabama knowing no one and it was the best decision I made. I remained good friends with almost everyone I left and I made soo many more friends. THE FOLLOWING IS WISE WORDS FROM ADAM THE PHILOSOPHER " dont be afraid of change- thats all i got, im not in the philosopher mood.
Ill send some prayers your way my dear! I miss you dearly and even if you moved to China I'm pretty sure that every relationship you've made could be left for two years and you could be reunited and it would be as if you were never gone- you are just THAT WAY.A lot can happen in a year my friend! I will be thinking about you!!
Oh yes.. one more thing. I mean lets be honest- I think you could make friends with a freaking wall if you had to, so there is no need to worry in that department!
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